Emily Calvin (@KITTEHMIEN) tweeted a request for inspiration, we responded. She answered back with this.

LOST VEGAS

The curse of the human ability to articulate, without understanding the implications

of, the question, “Who are you?” rests at the very heart of humanity’s existential crisis.

I asked Las Vegas, “Who are you?”

It answered, “Streets of neon lights; debauchery, sex, and gambling; night

life; the freedom to express the human draw toward heathenism; the crime scene of

Hunter S. Thompson’s Fear and Loathing; Hunter S. Thompson’s playground.”

Then Las Vegas asked me, “Who are you?”

And I answered, “A heathen; an obsessive traveler with horrible social

anxiety; a masochist; Hunter S. Thompson’s birthday twin; a homebody.”

The question, “Who are you?” is not to be confused with the subtext that often

nonverbally communicates, “Please tell me you’re whoever I want you to be.”

So I asked Las Vegas, “Who do you want me to be?”

And it answered, “The female Hunter S. Thompson with slightly more

discretion.”

And Las Vegas asked me, “Who do you want me to be?”

I answered, “Free from the corruption of money and greed.”

And when the answer to, “Who are you?” is incongruent with the answer to “Who do

you want me to be?” we must then ask what needs to change and why, in order to

challenge the integrity of who we really think we are or want to be.

So finally, I asked Las Vegas, “What would you change about me and why?

And Las Vegas answered, “I would throw out your intuition and give your

a set of balls; I would rid you of your fear of going too far; I would rid you of your

fear…because I would like to see you loosen the fuck up and learn that fun does not

always lead to tragedy. I would like you to be less focused on the appearance of our

city and more focused on what our city, and any city, has to offer to artistic, creative,

hedonistic minds like yours.”

Then Las Vegas asked me, “What would you change about me and why?”

And I answered, “The neon lights; the overstimulation; the pathetic

attempt to mask the misery of debt and addiction…because I would like to see less

corruption and more love. I would like Las Vegas to cater to a people focused less

on partying for partying’s sake and more on transforming a culture of excess into a

culture of free, artistic expression.”

But the only valid answer I have found to the question, “Who are you?” is, “I am

whoever I want to be, wherever I am and whatever I’m doing.”

- Emily Calvin

emilycalvin.com

@KITTEHMIEN

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